The language i couldn't keep

I found myself staring at my laptop for quite some time, wondering how I could possibly put into words what I feel about you. It isn’t just a thousand thoughts running through my head—it’s also everything my heart is trying to say but doesn’t quite know how.

Right now, as I watch you on the other side of the line, traveling back home to Zamboanga City, I can’t help but be reminded of the days when we were just two people talking—conversing about everything and nothing, yet still finding a kind of peace in each other’s presence. Communication, I’ve learned, is the key to any relationship, but what follows right after is consistency. And you, in your quiet way, remind me of that every day.

Lately, my life has been a whirlwind—changes, transitions, and the uncomfortable process of leaving my comfort zone. It hasn’t been easy. There are moments I wanted to break down, to cry, but I’ve kept myself still because this is the life I’ve been given. And in that life, you are an unshakable part of it.

Every time I see you—whether in person or through this screen—I begin to understand more about the world, and more about myself. Yet, I know I’m far from perfect. I have my flare-ups, my moods, my inconsistencies. Sometimes, I falter in the promises I make, and sometimes I don’t meet my own standards. But what comforts me is your patience, your steady “sorrys,” and the way you stay, even when things aren’t smooth.

Love, I’ve realized, is never enough on its own. It takes two people—working, understanding, compromising, choosing each other day after day. And that’s what I want with you. Looking at you now, on the other end of this call, I feel both wonder and excitement for the life we’re building together. I won’t just “try” with you. I will do this with you, for as long as we can hold on and as long as we choose to stay.

Wey,

Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for being here now, and for the days still to come. I know the road won’t always be easy, but I promise we will walk it side by side. Not only will we reach my dreams—we’ll reach yours too. We’ll win this life together. And when time has taken us through countless seasons, I hope that your hand will still be in mine, just as it is today.

I love you, always, in all ways.