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Thursday, May 9, 2024

Procrastination its finest

Finally, the weather has returned to its usual cold and rainy state after the extreme heat of April 2024. I have been really busy lately getting ready for the comprehensive exam that is scheduled for May 25, 2024.

I've been staying busy with reading and practicing writing to avoid the fatigue I encountered during my master's degree exam in 2019.  I still remember well how unprepared I was the last time, how tired I was when I got home, and how I even became sick with a fever. I'm making a lot of preparations ahead of time because I'm determined not to have that experience again. Still, there's a trace of procrastination that happens for no apparent reason.

I spent the entire day staring at my iPad and laptop in an effort to get into the right state of mind for studying. I even ate some ice cream and watched Netflix in a try to get the impeccable kind of motivation to push myself harder. Yes, both physically and psychologically, I'm exhausted. I therefore hope that taking a day off won't impair my memory or ability to think in preparation for the approaching exam.

The scheduled exam is in just fifteen days. Just like my master's degree exam, this one has another goal, so I wanted to put in more effort because I've been losing a lot of time and energy due to personal circumstances over the past few years. For that, I am still grateful. These events got me to thinking and realizing that we all need to live, have a life apart from our jobs, discover our happiness, and even our purpose.

It appears that I am using this as an excuse to write because I am finding it difficult to stay focused on my readings today. I have been putting off reading all day, which is bad because I still have a ton of readings to catch up on and I have work responsibilities to attend to. I have tried to read after work, but it seems to be extremely exhausting already, and coffee, soda, or anything else that helps me wake up can't seem to complement my everyday exhaustion.

 

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